Late last night i lost my dog. He went quickly and very unexpectedly. Only a couple of hours earlier the vet reported that whilst having a slightly elevated temperature and increased white blood cell count, there was nothing overly remarkable in his symptoms. He was even scheduled to be picked up by me at 10.30 to bring him back home. 2 hours later the vet rings and says that he has collapsed and they were trying to resuscitate him, but could not revive him.

He went very quickly, simply rolling over and then.........yeah, gone. The nurse on duty saw it all happen and said that it he was gone very quickly (almost as if he died instantly). Even though he was an anxious dog, he went without being distressed and without pain and without knowing what was coming for which i am truly grateful. As the nurse said, it was such a beautiful way to go, one second he was fine the next he had left. No pain, no fear.

Like all people so lucky enough to be allowed to have their life enriched by a companion, he made my life better because he was in it. Now i am left behind and i can't go with him, protect him, care for him, be there for him on his next journey.

I don't need sympathy, though i know you all will provide it (we are after all in this together, which i am truly thankful that the MFC provides me with such a community).

It does however highlight what is most important in one's life. And i would not hesitate for one second take my Neville's place so his life could continue. Not for all the premiership's in the world. This is now the fourth time i have had to endure losing my best friend.............it never gets any easier, if anything it gets harder.

 

Love those who are closest to you, appreciate them for the joy they bring to your life. Focus on the things that matter most and don't get hung up on trivial things like trades, players and coaches (unless of course they are truly that meaningful to you - then kudos, appreciate it all the more).

As i always said to my parents when i let my dogs give me kisses, you just never know when your last one may be. I now do, and i would not change a thing. Even right up to the very end, as what we shared was ours alone and truly unique.

I only posted this on here as it is a place i know where i am welcome, for which i am thankful.

 

Neville you were and are a great dog, who enriched my life in ways that i will never be able to repay. May you go to your mother who is waiting for you on the other side, until such time as i come to join you. You gave me so much joy and unwavering love, as i hope i did in return. May i forever be in your heart as you will always be in mine.

Gone too soon, but only for the more sooner that we will be together again. Wait for me, i will eventually be with you once more.

Loved now and forever, Tom.

 

 

 

Edited October 29, 20177 yr by Demon Disciple

10 hours ago, Demon Disciple said:

 

I don't need sympathy, though i know you all will provide it (we are after all in this together, which i am truly thankful that the MFC provides me with such a community).

 

I'm not sure what it is we need when this happens because nothing really helps. What we need is our dogs not to leave us. (which we all know is not reality)

We put our girl to sleep last year and simply put - I was blithering mess.

People said to us - think of the wonderful life you gave her and that was true but it didn't help ease the pain.

All i can say is  - I absolutely feel your pain and hope that soon that pain will go away and  you will be left with a smile on your face every time you think of Neville. 

 

Edited October 30, 20177 yr by nutbean

Condolences, DD! What a gorgeous boy he was.

Always think of this video in times like these. RIP Neville.

 

Edited November 3, 20177 yr by wisedog